Little did I know that this search was not going to be easy.
I have this thing about certain material goods. I don't know if its my way of detaching myself from real life, and my real life problems, or I am just slightly strange (probably the latter). It goes as far back as me making my aunt traipse around Dallas when i was 12 years old to find a New Kids on The Block towel that I had spotted at the beginning of my holiday and not bought. We never found it that day, but I somehow did a couple of years later. I still have that towel, and i still love it to death. I jump from one material good to another.. once I get what I want, I move onto something else.. none of them too expensive and none of them out of my reach.. but most of them quite difficult to get hold of. At the start of summer, it was two specific Tiffanys rings, around august it was a Pnut ring that said "Never again" (to replace my "true love" one, of course!), and now it is this top.
Being unemployed, and when I am not applying for jobs, I have a lot of time to dwell on bad things, so this has consumed me somewhat as a nice little distraction. Friends have gone into H&Ms for me.. As far as up in Newcastle. Apparently this shirt is sold out EVERYWHERE. I, myself, have phoned stores, and gone to around 7 so far.. I dont even look for the shirt anymore.. I just go up to shop assistants in the hope they will say "why YES! We have them in ALL sizes! Which one are you after".
This happened earlier on in the year with the MTV River Island tops. I ended up with 2. One still sits in my cupboard, as this was the one that EVERYONE has.
I predict I will get it, and it will join the MTV top, unworn. I will go to a festival and see about 20 other girls wearing it, and will scowl, because, in my head, I have convinced myself that this top was made for ME... and ME ALONE.
(If you happen to pop into an H&M and see one in a size 12, buy me it and i will be your best friend forever... well, until I become obsessed with something else haha)